The thing about Strength that makes us weak..

Is it not strength to look like you have everything figured out?

The thing about strength is it wraps you up and convinces you how much you can go on. It tells you how powerful you are and how much more you can take. It deceives those around you to not worry, check in or even pay you any attention. It lets you continue, pressing in, putting on a brave face and continuing with your expectations. It tells you, you are fine and causes you to tell others the same thing.

It keeps you wanting to show it off, either by showing up when you don't want to or smiling when you actually want to cry.

It exonerates all behavior of pretense and reminds you of the common phrase this society expects you to be- fake it till you make it or the millennial one- no matter how you feel, show up and show off.

Is it not strength to look like you have everything figured out. Is it not strength to be heartbroken yet move on and not break down, is it not strength to loose your job but continue posting smiling selfies and going out and living your best life

No it is not strength, yet that is what we do, what is expected.

My boss recently said-" it's not weakness to ask for help or need time out ", my boss of a month and a few days.

Because my heart is swore over several things that have and are happening, and I am still expected and I expect myself to show up .

Am I really showing up though

Part of relearning is realizing, it's okay to not be okay. It's okay to not show up. It's okay to appear weak, and sometimes strength is weakness.

So if I need time out, if I need to not show up, if I need to put some projects on hold, if I need to take care of my mental well-being instead of being consistent in what people expect, if I need to cry, it is all okay. And I allow myself to feel, to breathe, to stop, to take a break and re- energies without feeling less than. Because it is in the pauses that I get a clear mind to help me refocus, restore and repeat- showing up as my Magical self.

I cannot pour from an empty cup and unfortunately some times you really believe the lie yourself, you lie and pretend soo much that you actually start believing it and for me that is my greatest fear, I never want to lie to myself about myself- the best gift you can give yourself is the truth, it really sets you free. Now imagine being honest to yourself, to God and to people.

Your strength might kill you, because it can become pride. You continuing to do things you shouldn’t be doing out of obligation and not wanting shame, means you think so highly of yourself that you would rather bend yourself to prove you are still something you aren’t.

Humility is still what God says He needs to raise you up- He promotes the humble.

Becareful to not loose your promotion thinking you are creating it. The more you are strong, it means you loose out on God’s strength- because He only gives strength to the weak.

I am re- learning to be vulnerable,to be centred and to only pour out what I have and to be intentional about refilling myself before I hurt others due to unattended hurts within me- as we know, hurting people hurt others.

when you go to work sick- you make others sick, when you show up for a catch up with a friend tired, you are physically present yet absent and can hurt your friendship as you may appear inattentive or may be happy for good news they shared with you , yet it doesn’t come through in your reaction as you are tired.

To show you love and value what you have- show up only when you really can 💯 show up.

That is more noble than forced presence.

May we be a generation that is actually strong by taking time to be strong, may our lives be and feel good instead of just looking good.May our real lives be the reality outside of Instagram.

Dont get me wrong- sometimes your body needs to be controled by you instead of it controlling you, but often times we don’t give it the respect of listening to it and it is forced to retaliate against us by reacting and giving us a forced shutdown.

Remember we are spirits and our bodies are vessels/containers of us that we must live this earthly experience through, let us respect every component of our being.

Your body, mind , spirit, emotions need you to look after it.

Let’s start normalising rest, even God rested after creating the world, the Most powerful, Creative, Show stopper Being who made all this things we love- He rested!!!

what more you who is just a portion reflection of Him??

Rest ntwana, rest babes, rest sister , rest brother , rest mom, rest dad, rest CEO, rest bass , REST!!! There is no medal for strength, just graves.

~ Re-Journey

with Magic